You asked, a little impatiently, why you cannot simply begin with the deep things — why the tradition insists on so much groundwork first. It is a fair question, and it deserves a real answer, not a wall.
The sequence is not arbitrary, and it is not a hazing. It is structural. You cannot live in the upper rooms of a house that has no foundation. You can only fall through them. Order precedes ascent for the same reason a foundation precedes a roof — because everything above depends on what was set below.
You cannot live in the upper rooms of a house that has no foundation. You can only fall through them.
What the foundation carries
Consider what the deep things ask of a person: humility under overwhelming meaning, steadiness when the self feels small, the discipline to keep ordinary obligations even while sensing the extraordinary. None of these can be improvised in the moment. They are built slowly, in advance, by an ordered life.
This is the quiet wisdom in the tradition's caution about the hidden Torah — that it is approached after maturity and grounding, in general terms after a person has proven steady in the revealed law. The caution is not suspicion of the heights. It is respect for what holding them requires.
Lay it patiently
So I would reframe your impatience as the work itself. The groundwork is not the boring part before the real thing. It is the real thing, in its first and most important form. Lay it well, and you will not need to ask permission to ascend — you will simply be able to.
Lay it under the eye of a living teacher who can pace you, correct you, and keep you from skipping ahead. Foundations laid alone are rarely laid true. Let someone who has built one before stand beside you while you build yours.